Every Queen wants to be in love and live happily ever after, we weren't made to be alone. However, relationships take a lot of work. There are so many failed relationships, and it's sad to know that even the best couples you were rooting for didn't last. So like you, I am also trying to find the secret formula for an everlasting relationship. Let it be known, I'm not a relationship expert, but I've had my fair share of experiences. I've had short and long-term relationships, I've been married and divorced twice and married again in 2020 to a wonderful man. I'd be lying if I said my relationships were perfect. I've been in abusive relationships with ex-boyfriends where I was beaten, stalked, attacked, and had a shotgun and a knife pulled on me.

With two failed marriages, I've been lied to and cheated on, and then some, and with several, I'm so sorry, please don't leave me, and failed couples therapy; I completely checked out of the relationships and lived like I was a single woman. My ex-husband, who was my high school sweetheart, lived a double life and had a whole baby that I had no clue about. I didn't know until after we were married. One day I was washing clothes and found a baby diaper receipt in his pants. After 3 years of marriage, I left him because of his lies, his secret drug habit, and his erratic behavior. I found him sitting in the dark with a gun in his lap. Not to mention pretending to go to work when he hadn't been working for a month. Unbeknownst to me, my second husband was a sex attic and a serial cheater. He ultimately lost his job due to sexual harassment. We were together for almost 20 years, so surely it was a devastating loss to me.

I was like God, why me? I worked, I cooked, I cleaned, and I did everything that was required of me as a wife. There were no complaints in the bedroom. I'm not a bad-looking person, I take care of myself, and I'm loving, caring, and thoughtful. Most importantly, I put God first. I'm a child of God and a wonderful mother. I questioned and blamed myself and doubted who I was as a person. Am I perfect, no, but tried to be. I felt like in both marriages, I gave it my all until I had nothing more to give. My love tank was empty, so I filed for divorce, and I couldn't wait for it to be final. I just wanted out! I have to admit, not all of my relationships were bad. I've had some great, long-term relationships, but had to end them due to lack of consistency. It went both ways, proposals I declined, and I was waiting for proposals that never came.